Ever mine 🌹

Agora sim com muita certeza posso dizer que te encontrei. Se estava destinado ou não, eu não sei. Mas vou contar-vos o que sei: Que adoro a forma como olhas para mim, doce, mas ao tempo sensual. O facto dos teus pensamentos nunca estarem longe dos meus. A forma como proteges o que restou de mim e fazes desaparecer a minha tristeza com um simples sorriso. Entre outras coisas, mas mal posso esperar pelas noites sem dormir em que tu estarás ao meu lado, noites em que olharei o teu rosto e darei graças ás estrelas no céu por estares ao meu lado.

Those dreams I do not dare to dream Nor do I dare to speak Afraid of losing them pursued by sin. The desire to reach the unreachable. Those dreams that become untouched by hate and jealousy When do I begin to see The light that come from within me. There's a possibility that all that I see Is hidden from me. Help me stretch my fingers to reach the impossible.

Floating on the water Taken by the stream I come to the surface Not to be seen But to breathe The air that surrounds me The space takes me silently Come on save me brave warrior from the arms of this river This caotic waters That revolve around me Be wild, Be free, Believe

    Todos os dias penso em ti. " Como estás ?", "  O que tens feito ?", são as perguntas mais frequentes, assim como " Será que ainda te lembras de?".  Já passou um ano e ainda restam imensas perguntas que ficaram por responder, mas será que saber a resposta a esta iria de certa forma dar-me alguma paz de espírito ou iria apenas guiar-me a um estado de decadência mais profundo?     A cada dia que passa, tenho mais duvidas e incertezas que me levam a questionar todas as decisões que tomo dia-a-dia, tudo porque desde o dia em que partiste, parte de mim foi contigo, no inicio passar por todos os locais onde partilhamos as memórias mais felizes que alguma vez tive, abriam buracos dentro de mim e levando sempre mais um pedaço da minha alma, agora apenas vejo vazio, pois a maior parte dessas memorias se desvaneceram, esse amor já não existe mais, apenas o sentimento de perda da pessoa que fui se mantém e difunde-se por todo o meu corpo, por toda a minha mente...

Sometimes I wonder how it would be if we were still together... Would we still be miserable? Or happy? Because I feel that my heart would still be broken. I'm stronger now, but more fragile than before. I actually live my life scared that I will never fall in love again because of that damage you caused, my soul remains restless in fear for the things I may never have or may never experience, that perhaps the life I imagined for myself will only exist in my imagination.

  Sometimes I stare at the walls in my room (now empty, cause I cleaned all the drawings and phrases) and I feel as empty as they are now, I think about how much I've changed, and how much my life as changed too.   One day I heard someone say that the past ceases to exist the moment it passes, all that is left are the memories of something that no longer exists, so I still remember how I felt about that person, but I no longer know how it feels to love someone that much, so I keep looking for it even though I'm not doing anything, I keep changing so I can't be stuck anymore, but I still do. Because no matter how much I change I can't get the most important thing back: Myself. The real me, the me that cared if I hurt people or not, the me that was loud and playful, the me that knew how to love someone, now I simple don't care anymore.   How can someone's heart be that broken, that the person you were before completely disappears without a trace? She new this...

Death comes and takes people away. Love comes and brings them back There's no more shadows upon my heart, but there is light that shimmers on the corners of my soul. Truth be told I'll never stop being bold I wanna find someone's hand to hold.

There's a burning fire living inside of me. This fire has burn almost all that is left of my soul. Those parts of me will never be restored. And my love as vanished into smoke. Grief as blacken my heart. I've been welcomed to the dark. And left trail of acid tears behind.

All those dreams that remind me of who I wanna be. Memories that leave me breathless. All those times I've cried replaced by the times I smile. Light in my eyes and laughter in my heart. Forgetting who hurt me and is nothing to me anymore. So for now I breathe slownly I fill my lungs with  new life, and I let the old one go.

  Coração corajoso passado penoso.   Carregam sombras em olhos que outrora brilharam.   Imensas noites choraram,   Sem consolo por um tolo.   Procuram as peças desaparecidas de uma alma destroçada.

I keep on moving towards the light. That light that vanished. between dreams and gasps of a new life. Looking for the directions of a new chapter written under my feet.

Ás vezes quando fecho os olhos, ainda consigo sentir a tua pele na minha. O suave roçar dos teus dedos na pele nua das minhas costas. Os teus lábios beijando o meu cabelo quando pensavas que estava a dormir. Aquele aperto mais forte, o conforto do meu coração e do teu a baterem ao mesmo tempo. O sorriso nos teus olhos cada vez que encontram os meus. Tenho saudades daquilo que se perdeu, sinto ainda a tristeza pelos teus sentimentos já não serem iguais aos meus. - Andreia Abreu

  Seriously sometimes I don't understand myself at all!   Even though I'm happy to report that I think about you less and less   There I times that I couldn't care less, still you were my so called  "love of my life"   So I know that part of me will never forget you as well as the time we spent together.   I've been thinking a lot about everything that happenned this year and I admit that for the fist time in my life I feel very happy, because I've realized that I'm a very loved person, that all the people that turned their back on me and made me feel like I was nothing don't have any power what so ever over me anymore, that's why I'm not afraid anymore, not afraid to take a chance on myself, to believe that I can be whoever I want. I just need to take a step towards a new dawn.    Where's to never losing yourself! \o/

Oh meu deus! os dias que passei a ouvir esta música por causa da dor que sentia, da perda, do desespero, da dor. É de facto uma musica linda.

Let's get crazy tonight Drink  shots of tequila And end a bottle of vodka I'm gonna dance till I drop With a new dress I got on my favorite shop Find a cute boy to be my date Call my parents saying I'm gonna be home late I'm so drunk, that I think I can sing Only thing I'm doing is babbling words out of sync Let's have fun tonight 'Cause were still young.

And here goes another bottle of wine To myself all that is mine Give me a break Or give me a steak Either way I don't care Get out of my hair Who am I? Who are you? Don't know anymore what the hell is true Do I deserve what I want Or do I want what I deserve Either way is fine Lets just enjoy this future of mine.

Today and every day I say goodbye, To a part of me, To a part of you. One more is gone... And one day there will be noting left. Oh my darling... My love... I know it's over, but the feeling is still here Even after you've disappeared. You seem fine, so as I. But noting is really as it seems, And every day I lie, To you, to myself, to everyone... What happens now? Will I forget or will I be forgotten?

He's bright eye's consume me  They tare my flesh apart  And poison my heart  with this love  So unworthy of me.

Nether can I change what I feel for you. All the beautiful memories and the bittersweet pain I felt since I've been with you. But I can say that was the happiest that I ever been and now everything is crashing down and the thought of losing you is killing me, I feel myself closer to the edge, crumbling, falling, disappearing into nothing. To the nothing I was, to the nothing I am, vanishing between your painful words and your sweet words. This world I created for us, all the things I've planned for our life together you've taken with you breaking me into a thousand pieces.