Nether can I change what I feel for you. All the beautiful memories and the bittersweet pain I felt since I've been with you. But I can say that was the happiest that I ever been and now everything is crashing down and the thought of losing you is killing me, I feel myself closer to the edge, crumbling, falling, disappearing into nothing. To the nothing I was, to the nothing I am, vanishing between your painful words and your sweet words. This world I created for us, all the things I've planned for our life together you've taken with you breaking me into a thousand pieces.